This one’s gotta be good, it will get better I thought to myself as I sat and read my book. Rejection can only do good for me. Gives me time to myself. Self improvement, I shall call it.
So let’s get started. What can I do to better myself. Setting goals and deadlines. Hmm, I lack the intellectual outlay of further education, so must do some research on that, what about getting a new book shelf and also a couple of new clothes should do the trick.
Wait, this is supposed to be about me and not material things. Let’s see. What about personality development? Or a dash of creativity? Maybe a couple of musical notes to go with that.
How about singing and tapping around. That can definitely brighten the day. Could be a good run in the morning to get a jump on the day! I know that will surely get me going. Yes! Yes! I am finally feeling better about the future!
Hmm, when should I start? Tomorrow? Morning. 6:00 am.
Zap! Right on! I got all this sorted out. It’s time to hit the hay. Phew, I am exhausted. A good 6 hours…3 hours of sleep…should do, I guess… Anyway, lights out.
And I wouldn’t have guessed, surely enough tomorrow never came and today was always gone. The only company I had was those cold thoughts. Biting into my conscience.
Every night I planned out my day but never actually got any work done.
Where do we go from here?
I couldn’t make a move,
Was looking for that right groove.
Playing with my mind,
Surely ain’t help me find.
I know it can only make me strong,
Doing anything right now ain’t wrong.
I can feel it so near,
Maybe it’s right here.
Listen to the heart,
Hitting home like a dart.
Come on, come on, I won’t be too long,
Get in on that song.
Where do we go from here?
I told myself, I need to want it bad enough to begin.
The truth is, I had to begin to want it bad enough.
It has been three months now and it’s just the beginning.
I loved him as a brother,
I loved him as a friend,
He was practically family,
I hope this bond never ends.
She cared. She imitated his emotions.
Knowing that they will eventually be together.
Blind faith. Her knowledge was just.
She gave all hope. A better future.
It felt near although being distant.
It was love that conquered all fear.
Righteous and for everlasting life!
She could be no part of this world,
Neither could he, but she wanted to.
His touch kept her tied to the earth,
Indulgence is harmful if unchecked.
“Give me your ear and I will gain your heart,
Doubts arising, which may we further apart?”
Two young, to know what’s real.
Too old to start something new.
You got to just trust.
Someone told me, that it’s the “Maybe’s”,
That will get you in a fix.
Some day will come when you need to be sure,
That your “if’s” need to be wills.
Some times it’s okay to be imbalanced,
That you will fix only what’s broken.